Some things would change,
Some things won't.
I'm sorry.
But it's in me to not like using phone,
Unless it's for functions like alarm clocks, Emergency calls and asking where are you during meeting ups.
So as of now I officially say that I would be retiring my phone.
Since it causes so much troubles.
Today I really didn't touch my phone that much.

I typed a bunch of words before this but I find that it's not making any sense,
So I try to retype now.
I don't know how to express my feelings in words,
So pardon me if what I type came out funny or weird looking.

There is always a reason for me to do the things I do,
Or to NOT do the things I would do.
Sometimes I may seem to be ignoring people,
Or can't be bothered with.
True, if it's applied on other people.
I don't deny it, I find myself very self-centered.
Little things gets to me easily,
I get affected easily by words and actions.
And many other things like weather...but thats not important now.

If people don't pay enough attention,
To spot the little changes in my actions or words,
They won't notice the real feelings I'm having.
Behind all the smiles and the jokes,
There will be a hint of true feeling leaking out from the words.
I don't blame it if people gets the wrong impression from me,
Because I know that,
Only people who really cared enough about me,
Would pay extra attention to notice me.

I'm a guy who needs a very high dosage of care and concern.
"High maintanance" would be suitable to tag me under.
Usually is the girl who needs more care and concern,
But what can I say,
I'm different.

The only time I would never miss a msg,
Is the time when I wake up in the morning.
I received,
I read,
I never replied.
I knew you'll feel sad that I never reply,
But still,
I didn't reply.
I have a reason why I never reply,
I always have a reason.
Just that the reason don't seem logical to anyone else but myself.

People leave me for a reason,
They know me well enough.
All I can say is,
If you don't like me,
Stay that way.
And if you do,
Don't anymore.
I'm just not good enough for anyone,
Not good enough for people who have expectations.

I didn't know why the things I typed came out differently...
From what I had in my mind.
But thats the gist or it...some of it.

And...I don't get angry easily,
Or most of the time.
Sad and depression is my friend.