Was on bed since 12...
Tossing and turning did no good.
Many things flooded into my mind,
Things that happened during 2008.
Funny how the timeline of 2008 seemed fuzzy to me,
I admit I'm not a person good with dates or even memorizing things,
But I just can't piece up the pieces of 2008.
2008 sure is one of the most hectic year with the most impact which changed my life.
If life has a video recorder taping every second of it,
I sure wish I could rewind and see what 2008 really means to me.
I think I have been selfish all these while,
Same things happening with different people involved,
Is it coincidence,
Or is the fault really lying on me?
Every step now is like a repeat of the past,
Leading into the bleak future.
I think...I'm just not the right candidate for a normal relationship.
Am I changing you into someone else,
Someone which is not yourself,
Just to suit me,
Or am I just subconciously dooming this relationship,
By reacting negatively to everything I see or hear from you.
Either way,
I think I'm just selfish.
A box from the past revealed this particular sentence which hits me point blank. It reads: "If you love someone, set them free. If they come back, they're yours; if they don't they never were." Or something like that. It really sets me thinking, what does my heart really desire, right here, right now.
