Is it really such a good idea to brag to your boyfriend about you paying attention to other guys?
I don't think so.
Is it really worth it to be a company's dog?
Always being around for their beck and call,
Always being ready to protect someone's shoes which is of no relevance to you at all,
At the expense of your boyfriend?
I don't think so.
Is it really such a good idea to make a promise which is based on a lie and holds no meaning for you,
Using break up as the terms for breaking the promise,
And then break the promise like nobody's business?
I don't think so.
Is it really such a good idea to spent 3 1/2 hrs,
All the while thinking that I'll be free and around as and when as u like?
Even though I really am free and I did wait until the last possible second before leaving house,
I still don't think so.
Is it really such a good idea to meet someone and yet not said anything at all during the period together?
Spending the precious amount of time together to ask silly questions which is of no use.
So what if I leave the train?
So what if I take the same train as you?
It that the reason you came over?
It that the most important thing you wanna say or ask when you see me?
I don't think so.
Is it really such a good idea to meet up with another guy during this tensed period of time?
Other people can put aeroplane,
Why can't you?
Why do you always not put my interest first and give it a thought before doing things?
Party, celebrate, during this kind of time you have the mood to talk about those?
I don't think so, but if you have, I don't know what to say.
It's it really such a good idea to always come up with an excuse to deflect my questionings?
There are 24hrs in a day.
What kind of question needs so much time to think?
I don't think so.
Is it really a good idea to say that working is to earn money for school fees,
But you're already thinking of spending before pay comes?
I don't think so.
This holiday,
With all the promises you made,
All the things you said,
Nothing ever remotely happened.
I feet more lonely this holiday,
I feel lonely in a relationship.
I don't need love,
I need companionship.
I don't need someone who is more faithful to work than to me.
I'm not saying you can't be,
I'm just saying I don't need someone like that.
This christmas,
I have gotten the gift of reality as a present from santa.
Nobody is ever 'suitable' for me,
Reality proved perfect is impossible,
I'm not asking for someone perfect,
Just someone,
Suitable.
Thanks.
I didn't enjoyed this holiday at all.
With all the going out,
There's not really a good time to rest and relax.
It's lonely being in a relationship.
So...why then am I in one?
When words turned on deaf ears,
What's there to say anymore?
If that's what you want,
So be it.
Michael Watson, deceivee.blogspot says (12:15 AM):
Merri kris masu
This christmas...
Michael loves me the most. ><
That's why I hate holidays.
Sometimes,
When I speak too much,
Problems would arise.
Thats why I prefer to talk less.
Less words, less conflict.
Silence is golden.
How do you explain an explaination?
You give yourself too little credits.
I'm not an expressive person when it comes to sensitive things,
My words tend to be hurting.
There is only so much I can show to let you know how important you are to me.
You need to have more faith in us,
In me.
Time would change things,
I can't say how long it will take,
But sooner or later it will change things.
Your love won't go to waste,
Someday.
I promise.