My actual first love, can be considered an unforgettable one. I was immature enough to let things turned sour. It will always be a part of me which I will regret.
My first love taught me many things, and opened me up to this 枯燥乏味的生活。Looking back now, I truly seen colours with my first love but fail to grasp it.
Maybe because all that's left are memories, that's why it will always stay perfect. I cherished all our time together. 风风雨雨，喜怒哀乐，我都珍惜每一刻。Even when during the worst fight we have, I still cherished it because it's with her.
I was self centered, only thinking of myself all along. I never knew, how depressed and upset she became...and somewhere along the line, she even had thoughts of suicide because of me. All these, I didn't knew until it was too late. I'm sorry for being such a mental torture to you. Behind all the happy, cheerful and strong facade, there's actually a fragile heart which was entrusted to me...that I had forgotten to shower care and concern for.
The day I showed my temper, the time you turned your back against my back, the item I smashed you assembled, the key to my house you left silently on the table, the talk which we had that revealed things I never knew before, the tears which rolled down my cheek, the hands I reluctantly let go of...I can never forget. Never.
After you, I can never love the same way anymore. I knew firsts was always the most unforgettable...but I never knew that it will leave a scar so deep, time could never heal. The best years of memories of my life ended within 3 years.
